Almost 5 years of wasted pathetic adoration…
Saturday, July 30th, 2005Yesterday, we had this dumb school event in the middle of dismaying weather…
It was as boring as I predicted and was terribly dissatisfying.
As the wasted afternoon came to a close, I saw her…
Almost 5 years of disillusionment right in front of me.
Was this pure coincidence or was this what they called "serendipity"
I greeted her…
She did the same. (with joyless apathy that is)
I saw her buy a pack of something causing the influx of diabetes (cotton candy) with child-like wonderment…
Was this the same woman I admired from afar?
Those high school days where I bought simple nothings which made a typical girl fall head over heels was officially over.
They were nothing…
She was DIFFERENT!
No, No! Was I mixing fantasy with reality at the wrong time?
Possibly…
With dire consequences, I guess…
She once claimed her conscience was in rigor mortis…
I used to doubt it and I still am doubting.
Charge me with reckless imprudence.
I think I’m guilty as charged but let those who wear white socks in the club cast the first stone.
Even Hutch has the guts to call me "Super Lozer"
And for the first time in years, I’m starting to agree…
